Can't wear heels . . .

Now I'm bummed. I've got a fairly rare skin condition called Erythema Nodosum (http://dermatology.cdlib.org/DOJvol8num1/reviews/enodosum/requena.html)

The shit really sucks because it hurts quite badly and despite what the articles say, it leaves my legs permanently disfigured  - discolored and with depressions where the nodules used to be.

Well, for the most part this has been an ego and a grin-and-bear-it kind of thing.
Ego because I hate the way it makes my legs look
grin-and-bear-it because I have to deal with my legs hurting pretty badly.

This time, it's gone a bit beyond that though, because most of my joints are swollen and hurt quite badly - my ankles and wrists.

Why am I telling you this? Yesterday I was picking out shoes for my upcoming trip, and I found a pair that I liked and tried them on. . . and I almost fell flat on my damned face! The pain from my left ankle when at that angle and with weight on it was absolutely stunning. It goes without saying that I will NOT be going anywhere pretty for a while because I can't wear my damned heels

DAMN IT . . .

Of course, I guess that I can go shopping for women's flats, but that seems like SUCH a waste . . .